Love is friendship on fire....

I find myself alone crying in the dark... It's what they tried to build and that I should carry on further... independence... It's the need for it that makes me block and run... and always rediscovering roots I might have...

Love is friendship on fire with so many details I should add... Love shouldn't mean suffering... Nothing from this point on should... I learned to grow from suffering, but now I'm tired... Neither can I produce, nor can I consume, nor create....

The wisest thing that I realized... After defining love, I have got to learn to fall in love with myself first... Because it seems I'm never the center, even if I realize I should be... I'm not happy, even though I probably deserve it... It's all in the respect I have for my dreams... or, best, the one i should have...

Cannot move forward if I don't apologize or ask forgiveness for the harm I caused... I never actually intended... Color blind and too late to change things...

It's difficult to feel..like I feel now... For not even I can describe it... No vision and foundation but falling in love, alone and drifting away, caught up inside, in need of help but not necessarily wanting it, not feeling to be appreciated, not even by myself, sad, lost... Rediscovering the joy of morning sun, of writing, learning to face failures and goodbyes...

For many... I wish love... For me... Yet no real envisioning... My own to happen...

For all the colors:

This years love had better last
Heaven knows it's high time
I've been waiting on my own, too long
When you hold me like you do
It feels so right, oh now
Start to forget how my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Feelin' like I can't go on.
Turnin' circles time again
Cut like a knife, oh now
If you love me got to know for sure
Cuz' it takes something more this time
Then sweet, sweet lies, oh now
Before I open up my arms and fall losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
When you kiss me on that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singin' ain't this life so sweet?
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
Cuz' whose to worry if our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don't you notice life goes on
Won't you kiss me on that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singin' ain't this life so sweet
This years love had better last,
This years love had better last,
This years love had better last,
This years love had better last,
This years love had better last, whoa
This years love had better last.


Thank you,
Micky
falling in love