Going away for a while..to Peacelandia...

I really have to get out of the profane... Running away...?

please help me.. yet better not..I don't deserve it...
Micky

When the rain washes you clean... you'll know

The ability to communicate your true self...Tha amazing capacity to understand..Being able to live the present and also live to materialise your dreams...Dreaming...
For whatever reason I fell like in highschool again...It's like I regressed or just reliving some up-to-date fragments of it, but with a reason...

Micky
in search for answers and thank you my friend...

Now here you go again
You say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down?
It's only right that you should
Play it the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat... drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost...
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say... women... they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean... you'll know

Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams, and...
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness...
Like a heartbeat... drives you mad...
In the stillness of remembering
What you had...
And what you lost...
What you had...
And what you lost...

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say... women... they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean... you'll know
You will know...
Oh, you'll know...
Deep Dish- Dreams

Travelling around the world....

Tonight is Mar de Plata, Argentina...Tomorrow? Tokyo...Coming along with me?

Micky

wondering.....


Wonder off with me:

- La Perla | MarDelPlataWebcam.com.ar
- LINKS TO WEBCAMERAS OUTSIDE EUROPE
-Tommy's List of Live Cam Worldwide / Live Web Cam's around the World

I've got a ticket to the end of the rainbow...

I keep on thinking about my present state and what I should do...When will I find the eyes to see the brighter day...
Friday I took the English literature exam and afterwards I went, I believe not coincidently although it did happen so, I went to drink a coffee at a colleague from primary and secodary school at her place. She got married last year and now is living, of course, with her husband...It totally blew me away..I had this strange sensation of repulsion and admiration, desire and confusion. I've always had this misconceptions about girls that marry at 20 or 21, but wasn't this a learning experience for me...They are both 22 years old, they have been together for almost 3 years before they got married and they live in their own apartment. They are this strange and beatiful mixture of naive children, students, colleagues, grown-ups, lovers but what impressed me most is their natural attitude and their conviction that what keeps them together is the uttermost friendship they have for each other and they have this incredible maturity and power to nurture this friendhip, to protect the nucleus, core of their relationship...They undertook the best experience at the right time, for this marriage(I can say the word...) will bring them even closer, will bring out the best in them, will make sure she rubs her cold nose against his warm cheek 20 years from now on...I felt really inspired by their natural behaviour, ashamed of my misconception, wanting to live this marriage experience with someone but untill then wanting to meet someone that gives me the feeling of future, like I once felt...
Afterwards, we went to the campus together to get our results and on our way there we started to reminisce, to talk about what the other colleagues might be doing...And I realised I am not at peace with that past...I would like to meet some people again, to try and remember much more and integrate the experience for I feel I didn't...
I got an 8...I felt so stupid, though...I felt that the professor implyed I have so much more potential and drew my attention to care for it...Funny thing is that I have this shaken confidence right now, that I don't see where this potential lies anymore...I need reassurance but it shouldn't be like this...
I'm going to sing, you know, and I realised I want something special for my birthday...
I now feel I know the significance of the word girlfriend for... Had some nice times Saturday afternoon with you two crazy...It is unbelievable what it means to be with the right person in the right place, it is amazing what the atmosphere you need to have in order to really enjoy comes down to...We've lived an extraordinary moment of music just for us... and I furthermore realised, remembered and add details to my dream of a perfect day.... You, me, jazz in Paris...
No special link between the phrases for these moments have not been integrated, and interesting thoughts rendered this morning...There are only a few persons you can connect to. Stop. There are only some with whom you can tell stories and get to a deeper understanding of yourselves. Stop. Stop compromising and start making decisions. Stop and start, for you cannot change it the way you want to.Play along with a smile on your place...

Micky

in need of some special care that envolves a whole lot of who I am...


For you :

Pretty girl you are the light of my life, I mean my everything
You're the one I chose to make my wife, that's why you wear my ring.
And when I'm feeling down and out, you're the one who will bail me out
My love will always guide me home, pretty girl.
Pretty girl don't ever say goodbye, don't ever let me be,
If you do you know that I will die, you mean that much to me.
And when I'm feeling low and blue you always know just what to do.
My love will always guide me home, pretty girl.
Pretty girl, hear what I have to say, it's something you should know,
You brought me sunshine on my darkest day, that's why I love you so.
And when my wandering day is through, I'll always hurry back home to you.
My love will always guide me home, pretty girl.

Pretty Girl- Eric Clapton

Ready for an experience...

It is simply amazing how you head and mind can clear up after having a deep conversation and, furthermore, how it can bring the best out of you...It's like all these unknown forces inside both conjure up the context as well as provide the power for you to live a special moment with someone else's inside feelings...It al comes down to being sincere with yourself and actually not wasting the moment and build upon it...
The level of confidence can easily be shaken by different elements...Just take a look inside and call your friends, surround yourself with people you feel connected to, get inspired, be inspiring...You do not have to be at your peak to be able to inspire, it is not a conducted process...It should be your natural present vibe, no matter it's state, that people perceive or not...It's the power within...It's your soul, your pillow book, your self...
Listen to the melody 'cas my love's in there hiding...
Ready for an international experience? Needing it, preparing for it in everyway possible...Thinking about it...I know they have a great impact, i know what I am looking for... Ready to be shaken? Poland, here I come...? The decision is becoming so clear...

Micky
my music, my friends, my culture value elements, my family are my Zone, my Room, they provide me direction and equilibrium...The only way is to nurture...

Writing about love and finding it...

Scenes, feelings, symbols, representations, past, difficult future, ability to express, silence, misunderstanding, missing people, being scared, actually enjoying someone's voice over the thelephone, music, my music...
I want to say so much but I am not able to express myself and have the feeling I better not...Not everything is to be told right the very minute after...Giving myself time is a luxury...Treasuring myself and precious time...
Sacrifice, decisions, avoiding responsabilities, fear, comparison, getting away using different methods, ablution and Pandora's Box, dreams and insecurities, need of experiences...

Emotional lanscapes
They puzzle me...

Micky

Bob Dylan and Haruki Murakami

Feelings I refuse having...Dreams I shouldn't be dreaming...Things I should be doing... Finished Haruki Murakami's "Hard Boiled Wonderland and The End of The World" on the sound of Bob Dylan, described in the novel as "a child who looks peacefully at the rain falling down through the window of his room"... Someone sent me the story of the "100% Perfect girl" written by the same author mentioned previously...I want to feel like that... Going to bed I realised, better yet I heard my soul saying that I am looking for someone or I am apart from it and I know for sure this is something I tried to avoid seing and this is one struggle I did not want to solve. I knew decisions have to be made but I did not know deep inside things are that serios...

Micky
denial, frightened and where am I?

-" 100% perfect girl" : http://www.mat.upm.es/~jcm/murakami-perfect.html
-Haruki Murakami : http://www.murakami.ch/main_5.html

Decisions, decisions...

I feel the sudden urge to take a drastic decision so that I feel in charge of my life...Why is that?Dicontent..?
I met someone today who made an orthodox ceremony for commemorating Eliade together with his nephew Sorin Alexandrescu...I have forgotten so many things and when she described the way she was obsessed with his writings and his personality, I thought about myself and the way that he inspired me to go to India...I'm going to read "Sacrul si Profanul" again and "Fragmentarium" also...


Micky
not very inspired, dreaming of an encounter with Eliade and a moon beam